I can’t believe what I just saw.. What do we do now? Who is going to take care of us? I was always aware and I heard that our neighbors as getting kidnapped by the Japanese one by one.. but I didn’t know that is going to happen to OUR family...
My day started off fine, I had a mind that I should refresh and calm my mind since it was the first day of the month. But no, it was the worst day of my life...We were in the kitchen, eating our dinner peacefully, praying to God to always take care of us, keep us safe and stay together no matter what. But as my sister, Gao Jing Wei, Mom and I were eating dinner together, we suddenly heard footsteps toward the door. My heart stopped.. I heard my own heart beating. As we acted as if we were not in the house, the Japanese kicked the door open. We didn’t know what to do.. we were frozen. Mom told us to run, she screamed at us. But I couldn’t leave her.. I was trying to stay but my sister grabbed my arm and started running. I was trying to make my sister let go of my arm, but she would scream at me and tell me that we have to run. The Japanese soldier was trying to catch us, but my Mom stopped him. He grabbed into his arms and started to fight back, to help us run away. Just then, as I was running, I turned around and saw my Mom. The most shocking view I have ever seen... He was raping my Mom. I started to cry and try to go back and help my Mom.. But how can I? If I went back and we were all captured, then what would be the benefit? Her sacrifice for my sister and I was for nothing then.. But how can a man be that cruel? Why are they doing this to us? What did we do to them? Will I ever see my Mom again? I resent God.. I asked God every day and night to keep our family safe.. but he didn’t.. we’re separated, and I do not even know whether my Mom is okay.. What if she’s not? What if they captured my Mom and tortured her? My sister and I are going to stay together no matter what. We have to.. its the only way we can get through this.
November 1st 1937
I can’t believe what I just saw.. What do we do now? Who is going to take care of us? I was always aware and I heard that our neighbors as getting kidnapped by the Japanese one by one.. but I didn’t know that is going to happen to OUR family...
My day started off fine, I had a mind that I should refresh and calm my mind since it was the first day of the month. But no, it was the worst day of my life...We were in the kitchen, eating our dinner peacefully, praying to God to always take care of us, keep us safe and stay together no matter what. But as my sister, Gao Jing Wei, Mom and I were eating dinner together, we suddenly heard footsteps toward the door. My heart stopped.. I heard my own heart beating. As we acted as if we were not in the house, the Japanese kicked the door open. We didn’t know what to do.. we were frozen. Mom told us to run, she screamed at us. But I couldn’t leave her.. I was trying to stay but my sister grabbed my arm and started running. I was trying to make my sister let go of my arm, but she would scream at me and tell me that we have to run. The Japanese soldier was trying to catch us, but my Mom stopped him. He grabbed into his arms and started to fight back, to help us run away. Just then, as I was running, I turned around and saw my Mom. The most shocking view I have ever seen... He was raping my Mom. I started to cry and try to go back and help my Mom.. But how can I? If I went back and we were all captured, then what would be the benefit? Her sacrifice for my sister and I was for nothing then.. But how can a man be that cruel? Why are they doing this to us? What did we do to them? Will I ever see my Mom again? I resent God.. I asked God every day and night to keep our family safe.. but he didn’t.. we’re separated, and I do not even know whether my Mom is okay.. What if she’s not? What if they captured my Mom and tortured her? My sister and I are going to stay together no matter what. We have to.. its the only way we can get through this.